regret regret regret....

to my friends who're studying in NUS/NTU now: u pple should appreciate how lucky u are.. to be able to study w/o needing to serve 2 years (med students aside cos u still have to serve - call it repayment).. cherish it.. no matter how tough it is, bite the bullet, do your best and get it over and done with.. ask any nsf with places reserved and he'll tell u how envious he is of his frens already there and how much he just wants to matriculate tomorrow..


time flies.. i served my country almost 10 months already..

The saf for nsfs is like a different realm.. another dimension, another world that's mutually exclusive of reality.. there people are worrying about their temp jobs, tests, projects, their 4.5 cap, exams and ta da..

there we are.. worrying about our on-the-job training, whether our projected leave gets approved, if our jockey cap is creased, about extras, weekend confinements, guard duties, duties, sai kang, getting caught for camera phone, mp3 players, psp.. i mean seriously??? give me a break man..

that said, i'm not denying i've had the opportunity to get to know so many people.. bmt, combat medic course, underwater medic course, MSTD, changi medical centre.. came across like wat? 100 4As jc students? dozens of scholars.. doctors too..

A*star, Public service commision (psc), SAF overseas scholarship (SAFOS), SAF Merit Sscholarship (SMS), DSTA, SIA, local study award (LSA) , Medicine, SAF Academic Sscholarship (SAS), etc etc etc.. a year ago i didnt even noe a thing about it..

sigh.. all expense paid overseas Uni education overseas or locally.. + insane monthly allowance.. imagine studying in UK or US.. prestigious degrees.. =( like 300k USD in return for a mere 4-6 years bond..


it just makes me want to shoot myself for not at least trying to take 4 subs and s paper in jc.. what an idiot i was to not heed the advice of so many.. asshole.. ok maybe yes, i might not even get 4 As or even a merit for the s.. but at least i should have tried.. now i cant even apply for the simplest of scholarship.. ok i can apply, jus dun get any reply at all.. seriously? very encouraging..


not that i admire all those who studied overseas.. there's a particular loser i despise.. yea big deal u studied in the states to get a DIPLOMA.. ur parents are rich can pay for u.. wow.. let's advertise that in the papers shall we? would classified be sufficient? u know something? u're just living in a realm within the SAF realm.. how pathetic..

have to do my best at NUS.. dun want to regret again..

if anyone's offended by this post, i apologise.. no offence meant.. none.. just penning my thoughts..