its stressful..

sometimes i feel i've become a victim of my own success.. (last sem's)..

i think subconsciously i've heaped tremendously amounts of stress onto myself simply because i want to perpetuate the success..

ailing pointed out recently that if i let it go a little, i could be happier..


i dun know.. maybe its true, but to date i cant bring myself to do so..

i still reproach myself for not doing well for PC last sem.. and when i cannot do tutorial questions, i get really frustrated and at times i stare at the questions as though if i stare any longer, the answers will pop out...


yea.. its really not easy being in ChE.. glamor (if there's any to speak of) aside, the workload is immense.. and its only sem 2.. term 2 is gonna get worse with MA, CM and IT getting more crazy..

i'm taking 6 modules this sem and the least stressful one is the extra SS i am taking.. unbelievable..


some lecturers really cant teach at all but yet can set really tough questions.. i hate them.. i prefer cant teach but yet reasonable questions..


i guess the only consolation is that most of my coursemates are struggling too.. well with bell curves you dun have to know everything, you just have to know more than the rest.. yet everyone is so super duper competitive that everytime i step into the LT its like entering a pressure cooker..

lab reports are really anal.. they take so long to complete.. actually my chief complain is IT1005.. about 10 lab assignments and total weightage is only 10%.. thats like 1% per lab that we have to spend hours on.. we're like beggers..

damn