i hate being unwealthy... i hate saf...

practically all e pple around me have greater spendin power than me... they have atm cards, debit cards, wads of cash in their wallets, live in bigger flats/houses (in fact i cant think of anyone who doesnt atm), earn more money and some are about to get their license (something i want badly too but its so costly and i just dont have the time to get it, and e tot of learnin on a weekend makes my heart bleed, n my wallet..) ok maybe i can jus brush it off n say: 'also not my money cos most probably my parents will sponsor' but to me i feel its still My Parent's Money...

they buy mp3s, laptops, hps, pda, collectibles, games, pcs, digicams like as though 'hey wats e big deal man its only a few hundred worthless metal pieces'... as if shopping is a entitlement, not just a privilege...

i have no laptop, my mp3 player is thompson (wth is there even such a brand of mp3 rite?? - it came FREE with my hp and has an amazing storage capacity of 64mb ) , my hp is 1.5 yrs old, my pc is 4 yrs old, i have no pda, have no digicam....

ok i have a psp... wow.. ya so i spent money.. but i earned e money spent back.. i just felt obliged.. dun ask me why....


why is it so??? screw my current occupation.. 2 years of my life and i'm given measly pay - or meagre[whichever is worse] (ok so does every other person "contributing to the nation" but u get wat i mean)... like wth is this... even if i save all thru e 2 yrs i think not even enuf for 1 yr of Uni... which simply put, sucks...


i'm just feeling sore.. nothing much.. let me whine and despair & drown in my sorrows...





money is very important, and so is time (i noe there're others too.. health, frens, national security, world peace, clean n green enviroment, geneva convention, globalisation, racial harmony, religious harmony, ridding terrorists, higher birth rates, democracy, alternative sources of fuels, attend c, book out days, nights off.. blah blah blah).. and currently these 2 are the things i'm very deprived off...


so if u could be so kind, u could send me a cheque of any amt, or atm transfer some money to me, or u could even paypal it to me at my account treblers@hotmail.com ... ok i'm just kidding.. no seriously.. i'll rob a bank instead, or a money changer for a change.. ahh.. the pun.. ~bitter laughter~


edit: not only is my/our allowance meagre/pathetic/measly.. i/we often have to buy things for ns under our own tab.. take the items in bmt tts more familiar.. pickly heat powder, ziploc bags, L torch, coms cord, umbrella pin, arc of fire sticks.. who pays for these.. my/our 350 allowance does as a matter of fact.. oh ya n there's this latest ruling that we will have to sew SINGAPORE above our left breast pocket to differentiate us from ncc.. ok the tag cost $1 each n sewing each tag costs $1.. and e qns is: where will e money come from.. hmmm.. let me guess... my allowance again???

cant e garment be more generous and give us allowance of like 1k?? or at e very least contribute cpf???? tts like wat other A lvls students WHO DO NOT HAVE TO SERVE e nation in a way we do - wastin 2 yrs - get paid..

i mean... e gahment spends so much money on defence each year.. like 20% of expenditure?? (roughly la i cant rmb exactly) but u noe where these goes??
1) they go to paying for the diesel what the drivers use when they take detours so that they can clock mileage so they can convert to class 3 license
2) they go to paying for the extra blanks and grenades and rounds that the instructors use because they're lazy to return them
3) they go to paying for the many many many FADs and shell dressings that become expired
4) they go to paying for hartmann solns (IV soln) that is 1 litre and yet only 50 ml is used before it is thrown away
5) they go to paying for meals which totally taste like crap in tekong and costs $5 each
6) and many many more...

oh god i'm such a whiner...